Lately, and based on my recent posts regarding the lengthy vacation I’m currently living through. I find myself motivated toward only one thing: morning coffees.

I don’t have an intricate daily agenda. Aside from certain daily rituals and habits, I try to focus on the little things of any given day, such as my early morning coffee, internet browsing, facial masks on Tuesdays, and my 3 days a week walk/run.

I’ve been submerged in interesting conversations with my life coach Haider Al-Mosawi, mostly regarding my current burnout regarding work. Which in a nutshell I could claim the following:

1. I’ve lost interest in what I used to do.
2. I’ve became extra sensitive towards my previous work acquaintances.
3. I’m resisting to switch my career toward something more meaningful.
   
   

We are trained to dismiss our mental health in a world where productivity is all what matters, and we wrapped our personalities and identities with careers and outputs, which are mostly meaningless if you tend to see it in a stoic perspective.

I might be in a retrospective loop, where I comb my mind over and over in hope to gain insights about where I am and what path I’m walking through, but again, I’d rather do nothing than keep doing what I used to do, beating a dead horse.

I have plenty of ideas and creative outputs in my mind, yet I’m unable to sit down and produce them into tangible objects because somehow I’ve have tangled creativity with productivity.

So, my current aim is to loose the interest of productivity, and relearn the meaning of creativity and playfulness.